Sometimes, when you decide to give up on life is when you
finally start feeling alive. Those days when you just get so frustrated with
your job, you can’t handle how boring your life seems, you know you were meant
to get out there and LIVE. I haven’t written in a while because, as I told my
mom, “My life is boring.” However, my life is “boring” because I’ve been
refusing to remember all the great things that happen to me every day. I’ve
lost my appreciation for having time to have a Netflix-athon, or for having a
solid job that pays me regularly. I’ve decided that I feel like settling
down has constricted me and made me stop living.
However,
working in a unit by yourself from 6pm – 6am for a week makes you start to
think. Really, I feel like I can’t do anything but think out here. Which is a
good thing. I’ve felt like my life is boring, but in the last year, I took
multiple vacations (sure, mostly for weddings or to visit family, but vacations
nonetheless). When 2014 hit, I was on one of those vacations, visiting friends and
family back in Kansas. Then a little over a week later, I took the most
exciting vacation I’d had in 6 months.
In 2014,
I’ve been away from Houston more than I’ve been in Houston. I spent 4 full days
in Los Angeles, CA, exploring the city and playing Frisbee with great friends
that I hadn’t seen since I moved away from Sacramento. I got to ring in the New
Year with an old friend and some new friends back home. I’ve been out on my rig
for a week and have 2 more to go before returning to Houston. I’m still
traveling; I’ve just started taking it for granted. I suppose when most of your
vacations in a year are for weddings, they don’t seem as vacation-y, but
they’re still great breaks from work. They’re adventures and escapades waiting
to happen. Hopefully, they turn into stories that you will pass on to your
children and grandchildren (or nieces and nephews, or cats and dogs, whatever
you prefer).
Don’t
get me wrong, I still dream of awesome adventures through Europe, eclectic
escapades in Australia and New Zealand, etc. I will always dream of grand trips
that lead to stories that I’ll never forget. I will never forget the day that I
got lost with my (at the time) new best friend in Galway. I hope to add more
stories like that to the book of my life. Sometimes you never feel more alive
than when you’ve let yourself get lost. However, I need to remember that just
because I’m not taking any grand international adventures does not mean that my
life has all of a sudden become boring. Shoot! I’m one of few women that work
on my oil rig, HOW CAN MY LIFE BE BORING?! But to keep me preoccupied while I’m
out here at work, I think I’ll start planning my next grand adventure. Maybe
that will give me something to save up for and look forward to. Should it be an international
experience or maybe just a massive USA road trip to explore the many states
that I’ve never spent time in? Maybe I’ll start planning both. All I know right
now is that your life is only boring if you decide that it is. Choose exciting!
Find the new friends and stories in your daily life that make it an adventure. Write
your novel!
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